AN APOLOGY TO MYSELF
I'm sorry,
I'm fighting myself again
See this depressions got ahold of me
But I'm trying my best to see the good in me again
I'm sorry that I don't always love you in the ways you need.
There’ is days I can't even be the person I'm suppose to be,
And I celebrate the little things
Like remembering how to breathe,
So Darling please don't take this personally
There’ is days I can't even be the person I'm suppose to be,
And I celebrate the little things
Like remembering how to breathe,
So Darling please don't take this personally
I'm sorry I can't pretend I'm fine,
I think I'm losing my mind,
There's all this anger inside
And my angels are running out of time
I think I'm losing my mind,
There's all this anger inside
And my angels are running out of time
Can you help me to just breathe again?
Will you tell me I'm fine?
Because I don't know how long
I can keep playing this part,
Tell me when will just having myself finally be enough?
Will you tell me I'm fine?
Because I don't know how long
I can keep playing this part,
Tell me when will just having myself finally be enough?
Analysis and Review of the poem by Okoro Amarachi Anastasia
This is a heartfelt poem written by Miss Wolff which serves as an apology to oneself. The poem explore the depths of self-reflection and healing through the power of poetry. The poem consist consist of four stanza with no regular rhyme meter. The language is simple, written in a narrative form. The tone of the speaker is sad, sorrowful and as well consoling. A poem that teaches acceptance, self forgiveness, self-unveiling, self-pity, self- validation, etc.
Stanza one captures the theme of the poem where the speaker started by apologizing to oneself, trying to convincing his own self to see the cause (depression of his state of life. In that stanza, the speaker in a wrecked situation, speaking to himself another tone. The second stanza talk about the lapses and the neglect of ones self, showing lack of self-care and self-love.
The third stanza open up the pain the speaker hide for a long time, pretending to be fine. The anger hoarded on the inside, affecting his psychological well-being which he could not hold on to anymore, that why ended the third stanza “And my angels are running out of time”. In the final stanza beg for self-help and self awareness for change. The feeling of tiredness and weariness can be seen in tone of speaker. Hoping that there could be self-redemption at the end.
The purpose of this poem is speak anyone in such situation that feel bad/hurtful towards themselves. Anyone that’s have self resentment to accept and forgive ourselves. This is part of healing and critical way to experience growth.